Rhapsody of an extinct mammal

Toodles biatch

2012-01-21T10:07:00.001-08:00

Alhamdulillah, i am officially done with first year of degree. I wouldn't comment on my finals as all i could remember was Accounting subject could never impress me in any ways. Other subjects were just unbearable too but, i managed to wrap em up by heading down to Malacca with my bestfriends. So, i shall see you again somewhere in the third month of the year. InsyaAllah.

Miles Apart

2012-01-16T10:14:00.000-08:00

Attaching some wings

2012-01-13T19:34:00.000-08:00

Another phase

2012-01-04T00:36:00.000-08:00

Mother Nature defines me as a twenty one years old lady. But i calmly define myself as a six years old little girl trying to figure out who's inside the Big Bird costume.

Guardian angels

2011-12-31T06:36:00.000-08:00

What is a friend? A single soul dwelling in two bodies - Aristotle

I'd choose food over you

2011-12-30T02:29:00.000-08:00

Two days in Kuala Lumpur really made some changes.
I am talking about my weight and not to mention my affection towards food.
They are blossoming.
Really.

I'll leave when the wind blows

2011-12-30T02:09:00.000-08:00

Late nights when i stayed up late
All i do is wait and wait
You're never coming home to me
That's the hardest thing to see

Loner by the side

2011-12-19T18:53:00.000-08:00

Who says moving on is easy?
Thanks to the lovely memories and heartbreaking songs which have been playing in repeat since the day s/he walked away. Moving on is never easy but i am sure time will heal everything. We forgave, we forgot and we moved one for something better.

Come back, come back, come back to me like
You could, you could if you just said you’re sorry
I know that we could work it out somehow
But if this was a movie you’d be here by now

If This Was a Movie by Taylor Swift

it was worth the hard work

2011-12-19T04:54:00.001-08:00

It was an honour to accept the invitation to Malam Anugerah Kecemerlangan Kolej Melati as one of the AJKs of Perhubungan Dalaman. It was actually a dinner attended by the people who had been working hard to ensure the events organized by the hostel were nicely done. Been working undercover in organizing and running events, so these people really need to be celebrated once. All i could remember was being Ketua Program dan Protokol of an event called 5S somewhere in December. It was tiresome but nicely done. Alhamdulillah. So, the theme during that night was Flower Girls. I must say i had nothing nice to put on so i decided to wear a pair of green baju kurung. Baju kurung always works in any occasions, i believed. The event ran smoothly, the guests were well-dressed and the food served was delicious. But the venue was a little bit of disappointment but it was okay. Mountains of foods had caused me continuously gasping for some air by the corner due to the failure of my tummy to cooperate. I barely sit properly due to excessive food consumed. haha. It was a great event because after all the hard works and breakdowns we had experienced were substituted/ celebrated with such appreciation. Thank you for all the people who have been supporting the crews. Keep up the good work!

Classmates slash girlfriends

2011-12-18T19:35:00.000-08:00

The Class Day Out was teriffic! I love each and everyone of you girls who just made my Sunday.
Thank you
XOXO

Mystery of Misery

2011-12-18T18:56:00.000-08:00

After a week of disaster due to massive headache, never ending flu, and not to forget class presentation and Economics assignment i couldn't ask for anything else but a sweet escape. So, i asked my roommate slash bestfriend slash sister and my another bestfriend, Hafidza to grab lunch at Seksyen 7. We took a long walk instead of the bus due to the absence of public transportation in the university on Saturday. Everyone was hungry and nothing could stop us from reaching to the destination , not even the long walk. So ended up having lunch at Barra and went to Giant hypermarket to get some groceries. My valid reason of heading down to Giant was to buy the stuffs that i'll be needing in order to come out with fruit salad. It was for the Girls' Day Out near the lake of Shah Alam. Bought everything and later Siti Atikah rang us mentioning that she'll pick us home. But as always, the plans got changed and we decided to accept Siti's invitation to her house. Her idea of taking us to the swimming pool at her apartment was hardly resisted. haha. So, yeah we went there. We actually swam in the pool happily while it was raining. Meet some of the Mat Salleh who happened to be in the pool playing too. Too bad, other girls caught their eyes better and we appeared being utter losers swimming together. Just us girls, no Mat Salleh. Along the swimming session, i put aside the headache and flu that i was having, i just simply took a big dive and played happily. Swam for an hour long and later decided to get back to the 6th floor. After the joyful evening, at night we went out for dinner at Kedai Kopi. A hidden restaurant by the lake which was recommended by a friend of mine. The food was good, the services was great and the place was romantic. Before we got there, we experienced some of the creepiest moments on the road besides being witnesses of a car crash. I believed, the fun was killed by those creepy random moments, right there. Everyone got numb but don't worry we managed to finish our dinner. haha. As always, nothing can kill the hunger we experienced. Not even the fact that we got lost at the dark and fogged road.

Stupid antibody

2011-12-16T18:54:00.000-08:00

I believe i need a gallon of antibiotic. That will do me good.

Another typical birthday

2011-12-14T16:59:00.000-08:00

Hey look, it's my birthday!
Alhamdulillah i am officially twenty years old. Or should i say finally twenty.
Celebrating my big day with piles of assignment wasn't that bad
Thank you for the birthday wishes and i am blessed to have you people with me
Have a splendid day, lovely people
Cheers for the golden age haha
xoxo

God will stick around with me

2011-12-13T00:30:00.000-08:00

People come and go. But i know, God will never leave me. So i have no reason to cry myself to sleep every night and feeling lonely. I have better things to do.
Thank you

Hooked up

2011-12-13T00:09:00.001-08:00

Today, i skipped the Statistics class, the only class on Tuesday. My head hasn't been acting nice. Been pounding for only god knows how long. Tragic. I wonder is it because of the weather or me myself who haven't been eating properly. Truth is, whenever i got into my room which is on the 7th floor, i will never go downstairs only for the sake of a fine food. I rather munch the bread alone. At least i will keep myself away from starvation until the next day. At night, i would buy myself waffles or sometimes i forgot about dinner. Days went away and until today i just realized that i haven't been eating that much. Besides my unsettled business and laziness, i don't know why i have been acting strange towards food. Or is it because of the low blood pressure thing? I really need to start googling and find out more about my state of health. Just to be sure and later alarm myself with several precautions. But don't worry, i'll eat whenever i feel like doing so. As for now, i don't want to force myself to swollen much food because i haven't found the beast side of me. Not in this month. I've been indirectly hired to diet. haha. I shall score for 45kg, no?

Rock a Baby Rock

2011-12-12T09:02:00.000-08:00

Here's the thing, i don't really want to post this because i don't want to be seen as someone romantic and sweet especially by you, Azira Hafiza. I just want to keep those sweetness and romance real low but i guess i couldn't stand the birthday atmosphere of yours. It's 13th of December and it's your day. Again. The day you were born and turn out to be one of my bestfriends on the planet earth until this moment. You might be 48 hours older than me but who cares you're still way older by seconds. Haha. We, best friends will always love you for who you are. Your joyah-ness, your jokes, your laughs, your madness, your kindness and etc etc, just please make them stick with your personalities. Don't ever change for any better you. When your days get fucked up, just remember that you have your best friends around that you can turn to. We will make you feel hundred times better. Trust me. Best friends at your service!

Happy Birthday
It's good to have you around
I love you

Almost there

2011-12-11T19:38:00.000-08:00

Like seriously, do we have to do this again? I thought we were done.

Walk with me. Please.

2011-12-11T08:50:00.000-08:00

I am not very sure for how long can this "relationship" last
My heart believes that you'll stay with me thru the end
On the other hand, my head tells me that you're just another guy in my life chapter
But i know that we both have been trying our best to keep this "relationship" bloomed
I am so sorry for being less committed and selfish throughout the days
But hey,
Please don't stop preaching those three words
It's because i feel the same way too
I just don't want to lose you
Not this time

i'll come over and save you

2011-12-09T20:55:00.000-08:00

a toast for the birthday boy

2011-12-09T20:30:00.000-08:00

To the guy who can make you smile without even trying. To the guy who never stops himself from laughing at my lame joke. To the guy who shares the same taste in music as me. The guy who always keeps things to himself just to make sure that i won't get worried. To one of the most diligent men i've ever known. And, lastly the busiest man alive.
Happy 19th birthday. I hope you'll have a great one. I will always pray for the best of you.
Take care.

Grooming my Friday

2011-12-09T09:25:00.000-08:00

I never loved Fridays this much. Period.

Tenang tenang

2011-12-05T19:43:00.000-08:00

Pernah tak rasa dipermainkan or in a meaner way, diperbodohkan? At that time, engkau tak fikir lain selain cari jalan balas dendam. Kau cari jalan nak bagi dia rasa apa yang engkau dah rasa. Tak terfikir nak fikir panjang. Lepastu kau terduduk kejap pandang dinding dan pejam mata terus fikir. Secara rasional, takkan lah aku nak buat gila kat engkau. That's not the way. Tu bukannya cara orang bijak handle masalah. Engkau mungkin dah sakitkan hati aku tahap dewa tapi bila fikir balik kenapa aku nak balas dendam? Balas dendam akan hanya buatkan standard mentaliti melayu aku sama dengan engkau. Aku tak boleh jadi macam engkau sebab aku tau aku manusia yang lebih elok dari engkau. Beratus kali ganda lebih elok. Biarlah, sebab satu hari nanti Allah akan balas balik segala mak nenek yang engkau dah buat kat aku. Maybe just maybe Allah takkan balas tepat tepat kat batang hidung engkau tapi ingatlah Allah tu Maha Adil Maha Kuasa. Tak kena kat engkau, adik beradik dan anak cucu kau tengah beratur tunggu turn. So, mulai hari ni aku akan duduk tunggu sampai hari kau jatuh terduduk. Terima kasih, daun keladi

Dear diary,

2011-12-02T17:55:00.000-08:00

After a rough week, i actually managed to have a very long sleep without any disturbances. This morning, I woke up like a king lurking in the room wondering what other things i need to get them done. Last week was outrageous. Or in other words, a huge hurricane. Okay moving on to the real definition of hurricane. Hurricane is better known as a disease experienced only by a student who truly enjoys finishing up her mounting assignments at the very last minute. haha. So, after i finished with the Industrial Relations written reports, Management Principles and Practices assignments that Wednesday, i moved on to a last minute revision for Statistics quiz and later building up my confidence level by participating myself in a Debat 211 Jam Tanpa Henti on Friday, of course as a debater. Before the big day, at that night, me and my teammates slept at four in the morning and the last thing we knew we woke up at seven in the morning and later started debating. Alhamdulillah, it was did and done accordingly. Maybe due to the fact that there weren't many spectators during our session so it turned out to be less creepy. But until today, i am really proud of myself to be a part of it. Big time.

At night, me and my friends attended a so called gig performed by my favourite local indie bands namely Hujan and Bunkface. And not to forget our old times favourite local indie band, Oh Chentaku was there too. I couldn't be happier to say that it was worth every penny i invested. The sound system was fantastic and the stage lighting was to die for. Everyone was having fun and don't worry about me because i was totally insane screaming like a baby. And of course this morning i barely owned a voice due to last night show. I had fun last night. At least, it was worth knockout after being a zombie all this while. Anyways, i'd like to thank Fariz Razali for escorting us to meet AG Coco, who happened to be the guitarist of Hujan that night. Thank you.

a delete button i shall seek

2011-12-02T17:48:00.000-08:00

I think life would be easier if there's a device that able to make you forget about your mistakes. A sort of device that can erase all those hatred in his/her heart so he/she wouldn't be hating us that much or for too long. Forgiveness would be much easier that ABC. So, the next day you wake up you wouldn't need to remember of all those bad choices you made. Too bad, not even the richest people on earth are able to own that kind of device.

would you like to have a cup of tea with me?

2011-11-27T18:23:00.000-08:00

I couldn't really recall when was the last time i made use of my weekends besides got stuck in my room and chained in bed. No, i didn't mean that kind of chaining, what i meant was spending the whole weekend sleeping and being friendly with the bed. Get it?haha. So yesterday was Sunday, it wasn't like any ordinary weekends because my friend asked me to join her to Pasar Pagi, Shah Alam early in the morning to buy tudung. The roads got cramped by cars and motorbikes but we managed to make it through. I didn't bought anything except i invested my "wealth" to a plate of delicious nasi kukus, a cup of fine Shah Alam cendol and a bottle of Barbican to kill the thirst. The weather was insane. Too hot for a shopping session. I didn't thought of bringing along an umbrella nor a fan hand because besides the fact that i am not an umbrella person, it was my very first time hitting down the land of Pasar Pagi Shah Alam. Was a great experience and was great to see many kinds of goods and foods ready to win the customers. While in the afternoon, i went out with Mr. Nice who had promised me earlier that he would keep me company at the hypermarket. After i got my to-buy-list done, we went to IKEA for no better reason but to have their meatballs the way i wanted. Before that, i had bakso for lunch, with the exact same guy. So yeah, i was being a hungry ogre. I thanked Mr. Nice for being extra patient with my insane appetite and silly behaviours of whining over the price of goods and for causing a severe injury to his ears listening to my voice singing along the songs in his car. Thankyou. In the evening, i got a call from my aunt from Puchong Perdana telling me that she'll be coming down to Shah Alam to meet me and later we'll be having a fine dinner together. We met at I-City the place that my little niece, Irdina was killing to go. We got the chance to take a carousel a round or two. Was good to meet my nieces and grandmother who was looking slimmer that night. I miss spending time my family while going through this hectic semester. It was a great aspirin to me. At that moment you felt relieved to catch up with them again after a long day. At 10.30pm they sent me off to the place where i belong until the coming two years. No, shut up i didn't cry mommy that night haha. So that's it little princess. Whuew and i wrapped up my Sunday with a long bath and sleep. Alhamdulillah, this morning i am ready to go straight back to reality and feed my unicorns with piling assignments and revision for upcoming papers. Anyways, i can't wait to have my Industrial Relations and Management Principles papers marked. I am rotting to death waiting for my marks. I am thrilled.

eavesdropping joy

2011-11-25T23:57:00.000-08:00

You have no rights to question with whom i am with, where i am at and to even condemn about my social life. You're not my dad. Not even my friend. So, let me be happy for once? I had enough living in a cage built by you. I need to search for my own self again.

i've found a shelter

2011-11-25T20:03:00.000-08:00

Last night was fun though. We should do it more often.

Hug and kiss

Karma cycles

2011-11-20T03:18:00.000-08:00

Alhamdulillah. I had a chance to meet wonderful old folks back in Puchong in conjunction with Kemusa Club . To be a part of this charity visit was a massive honour. During our visit, it was heartbreaking to see 50 old folks and unfortunate people living under the same roof with different stories that brought them there. But amazingly, there are still some people out there who are kind enough to share their loves by feeding and looking after them. These people are just magnificent. Although the old folks welcomed us with smiles, shyly laughed whenever being teased, and even rubbed our hands whenever they told us stories, deep down inside they hoped to do all those things with their sons and daughters. They'd love to meet their grandchildren. I bet there are some of them who still believe that someday their kids will come to take them home and pretend like everything was just a bad dream. InsyaAllah, Allah will always keep these unfortunate people in His embrace. To few people who ever thought of giving away their parents to the old folks centres during their golden ages should thought of the karma cycle which will haunt them down with hundred times greater impacts. MasyaAllah.

thank you

2011-11-20T02:59:00.000-08:00

I gave you one of my favourite properties . And it makes you one of the most important people in my life too. No matter how bad your issues, just remember that i'll be your tissue like i always did. Thank you.

well, hello there

2011-11-18T06:58:00.000-08:00

I sneaked into the lift with a white rose in my left arm. Quietly, i almost looked like a fat mouse. Funny how i managed to wrap the flower with another non-bio gradable plastic bag to make sure it barely seen by naked eyes. Nothing fishy, i prayed. Glanced on my left and right just to ensure that i won't get caught by anyone. Some other girls would have been so happy to have receive a flower and proudly carry it with them but as for me that was the moment where all those embarrassment clouds surrounded me. For a girl who never favoured flowers as an apology gift, i took the sneaking thingy seriously. In fact, i never received one from anyone before. So listen, i accepted all those apologies and thank you for making up to me tonight. I am glad how we could somehow talk like ordinary adults for the sake of keeping this "relationship" going. Thank you, mister. Goodnight.

A toast for a brat

2011-11-17T08:59:00.000-08:00

At this moment, after what you did and done i have gazillion reasons to just hate you. But my heart still lurks for a single reason to forgive you. I know, i am an utter idiot.

jabbering

2011-11-16T02:21:00.000-08:00

In my opinion, at this age, let's not be too committed to someone who barely loves you. Get to know a person or two who can make you feel alive for once. Life is too short to cry over your boyfriend who never understands you. Love him/her once, and love you family and friends twice. I am sure they won't let you down and even if they do, it is worth the despair. Time passes, people change, people leave. Just be sure that, if it is meant to be, it will be. Why the rush?

perhaps

2011-11-14T18:17:00.000-08:00

Waking up this early just to figure out how much a tix will cost you and when can you start eating instant noodles in order to get your ass into that blue zone. It sounds pathetic and yet familiar isn't it? So yeah, after this whole bunch of research thing i can see that there's a thin line between a huge fan and poor fan. I bet by the end of December the Automated Teller Machine ATM couldn't promise me any inspiring balance of digits. And again you thought about when was the last time you went to such concerts and screamed your lungs out with your friends. Sad to say that it was during my secondary school era and everything was called Foster your Parents to Pay instead. People call it ''don't spend if you can't afford" while i myself may call it "nothing can stop you from having something that you've been dreaming of". Besides, it sounds nicer and more appealing, no?

collar bones

2011-11-13T16:41:00.000-08:00

I'd like to thank you for bringing me to your friend's beautiful wedding reception, mister. It was an honour to escape from the heftiness i've been dwelling. Forgive me, but to be in the place where the sticky notes are everywhere and unmanageable table is never an option. So, 90% of our conversations were filled with my session of whining on the headache i've been experiencing. Sorry to cause to you have one as if it was some sort of a contagious disease. Seriously, this headache hasn't decided to leave the room ever since last week. I, too am worried of its never ending scene. I went to see the doctor when i was in Kulim, when i was having a major fever and he only mentioned about my blood which has been running low. Funny how it sounded but i thought i was entirely just fine. If this headache has got something to do with my low blood pressure thing, then something awful needed to be done. As for example, start eating cockles and inner parts of chicken. Now, that can never done. Period.

summary

2011-11-12T17:16:00.000-08:00

I'll treat you exactly the way you treat me. The game is as simple as that. And yeah, i speak the language of equality.

eat em raw

2011-11-12T02:53:00.000-08:00

YOU ALWAYS TALK ABOUT YOUR BOYFRIEND
DON'T YOU HAVE ANYONE ELSE TO LOVE?
WHERE ARE YOUR FAMILY AND FRIENDS?
IT'S NOT LIKE YOU DON'T HAVE ANY.
DON'T YOU?

shoplifting efforts and courages

2011-11-11T20:54:00.000-08:00

Ever wondered can't your November get any worse than this?

rum and weed

2011-11-11T19:53:00.000-08:00

in my eyes, you're a bad idea and indeed a bad mistake
while to you, i am just another bad joke you've just uttered

bloody marry

2011-11-02T09:12:00.000-07:00

It's about time to move on to a better place. This time it shall be undercover.

impulsive atmosphere

2011-10-30T22:43:00.000-07:00

Hey, why did you lose me? I told you that i won't be there once we're done. And what did you think you were doing talking to me minutes back like you never knew what is going on between us two? So, tell me did someone send you morning texts which made you smile all day long? Did someone remind you to never skip your daily meals? Did someone tell you to drive safely and lock the door once your in it? Did someone leave you love notes any of these days?

randomize your thoughts

2011-10-30T22:39:00.000-07:00

splendid gathering

2011-10-28T10:39:00.000-07:00

So once again thank you, Pak Ndak for ruining my plan to go on diet. Oh well, girls' diet always starts tomorrow.

a toast for a blondie

2011-10-28T10:25:00.000-07:00

Yes, you may express you disappointment whatnot but at least, make it sound clever or less idiotic. Thank you.

throwing pebbles

2011-10-28T07:28:00.000-07:00

Finally, it all ended with a thought of faded memory clouds and surprisingly, my eyes weren't wet.
Not at all
Now you may tap my right shoulder and release the frown on your forehead.

trust issues

2011-10-27T08:04:00.000-07:00

So, i told you that one of the things that i fear the most is lightning
True, it sounded like another common exchanging of words sessions
But what you didn't know was, i never told anyone about it before.
And frankly i didn't feel scare at all of being judged by you nor being called as a coward
That's just how much you mean to me and how much i trust you.

hanging there

2011-10-24T06:32:00.000-07:00

congratulation, i am the second person who just broke your heart.

I smell your existence

2011-10-22T05:12:00.000-07:00

Stop consuming your time figuring out who are you to me. I left some petty space right at the left side of my chest and it is called my heart. So, here's the key go check in.
Thank you

sisterhood

2011-10-22T02:40:00.000-07:00

There are few things that i should be grateful upon being a sister. God gives me the chance of a lifetime to yell and to be yelled after all this while. It might sound funny but that's what i've been through again and again. I have two little sisters who were brought to a planet called earth to be bonded in never ending cat and dog fights. Such ashamed that these days cats and dogs mind their own business rather than getting involved in street fights like the ones in Hey Arnold cartoon. Being a big sister, my role is to ensure that they do things based on my prescriptions . And God bless them, they were born with thick eardrums or should i call soundproof ears. I couldn't have imagined the joy that they're celebrating whenever i am not around as for them, no command heard for shower, no Maths exercises, no table manners and absolutely no TV curfew in their daily lives. Sometimes you feel the pleasure and excitement of telling them what to do and what not to do. But no matter how evil i get, being apart from them is never that easy as there's always this recap on their happy looks whenever i prepared lunch and teatime meals, those looks when i decided to buy them goods and gave them some extra TV hours. All i could remember is how hard i've been putting on them. Funny how i even thought of being listed in the World's Creepiest Sisters which was voted by them. So, yesterday i was awakened by a call from my little sister. She told me that she'll be going to a school trip to Tambun and asked me on the things that she needs to bring along with her. It's a normal thing whenever your sister calls you up and asks you about what to wear and what to do. But this one is even better in my point of view, she had the urge to ask for my help instead of turning to my mum or my another big sister. Right there, i believed that she trusted me. And at that moment, i figured out that i am not that evil after all. I've just been spoiling them with too much insecurities and love.

kerut dahi

2011-10-19T03:14:00.000-07:00

Benda paling tak rational pernah aku buat, cuba sedaya upaya bina equation kimia dengan kau.
Benda paling rational pernah kau buat, percaya aku takkan pernah mampu.

how's it going Pahang?

2011-10-16T14:08:00.000-07:00

Shall we call it a day?
Goodbye, Dusun Eco Resort, Pahang

you and i

2011-10-13T04:07:00.000-07:00

let's solve the immaturity, disputes, insecurities and jealousy together
after all, this relationship is between two of us
why on earth would we end it up nor give up due to the third party?

look, it's raining foods

2011-10-13T03:55:00.000-07:00

i couldn't remember the last time i was buried with fatal hunger.

Sodium and Glucose

2011-10-11T05:38:00.000-07:00

Our relationship is never close to perfect

But that's the thing that keeps us going

One Sunday afternoon with a celebrity

2011-10-09T07:29:00.000-07:00

Thank you for coming all the way from Cheras just to meet me up. So listen, keep it cool whenever people screw up your day and start believing that there's always someone who's willing to make it all better.
I love you best friend.

how you've been doing?

2011-10-09T07:09:00.000-07:00

Technically, i am not pretty much a loner but this semester has changed me into someone better internally but not by sight. I couldn't even remember when was the last time i went to the class all by myself, alone. But these days, i had realized that it took me a really long journey to get my ass to the faculty. People see me walking alone, eating alone, working alone and thanks god they haven't seen me talking alone. Yeah, now i sound like some sort of a pathetic wallflower living unnoticed at the back of the class which actually kindda cool. Because all i can think about is going straight back to my crib as instant, having awkward conversation with new people, wondering when is the appropriate time to go to the library and not to forget spending less time talking. I might sound selfish but this is an incredulous experience once in a lifetime. So, my plain decision about being alone throughout this whole semester wasn't that bad after all. I shall survive in my very on bubble. I don't regret about this whole thing but i know i will only if i never thought of this whole transformation idea. I'll figure out something for the coming semester. I reckon it's for the best, darlings.

butterflies in my belly

2011-10-09T06:29:00.000-07:00

'' Don't worry i will take care of you soon "

JUST PROMISE ME YOU WILL, OKAY?
BECAUSE RIGHT NOW I NEED SOMEONE WHO WOULD LOVE ME EVEN AT WORST
THANK YOU

I don't like it here

2011-10-07T01:27:00.000-07:00

I have nothing much to say nor to do. But hey, the good news is my entire semester sucks.

i just want to make you happy

2011-10-07T01:04:00.000-07:00

2011-10-05T07:35:00.000-07:00

cubaan pertama

2011-10-05T07:27:00.000-07:00

Terima kasih daun keladi, sila tipu saya sekali lagi.

How's everything going?

2011-10-04T05:25:00.000-07:00

i love you, entirely

2011-10-04T05:09:00.000-07:00

I believe that i cant love something for too much or entirely. Because based on my previous experience, whenever i started to love that one particular thing, i simply ended up by losing it. No matter how hard i tried to prevent it from happening, there was always this magnetic superpower to grasp it hard and left me feeling empty and regret. From my favourite pencil when i was in standard six and today, i lost my precious partner named Gambit.

Nearly bloated food tour throughout second semester

2011-10-02T08:38:00.000-07:00

Talking about food is an immense issue. Because right now i am hungry.

Past tense quarter pounder

2011-10-02T08:13:00.001-07:00

People keep on blaming the nature of living on why can't we have a rewind button. And they say "If only i can have a time machine and go straight back to past to fix everything". Funny though how people can be too sure on privilege of correcting mistakes only by a single button but not they themselves. Sadly, i am one of those people.

you reward me with love, i crown you with affection

2011-09-27T12:04:00.000-07:00

Yesterday was my mom's birthday. I couldn't tell was it for the 44th or 45th time which later proved that i am a daughter with Alzheimer disease at this early age. But i am utterly sure that i have the coolest yet the most beautiful mother along my living period. I love you, Zarina Ahmad.

" Tadi kelas ekonomi lila present answers depan my new class macam taik. The lecturer probably hates me."

"You are not good at talking but you have your own specialties. Don't take it too hard."

Alhamdulillah, you always have faith in me when nobody else does.

those shoes are made for walking on the moon surface

2011-09-27T11:52:00.001-07:00

sampai bila nak lari lari anak kejar bahagia kalau masalah lampau belum selesai?
kalau kau rasa bahagia dah tersedia, tiada istilah susah payah atas bumi ni
setuju kalau aku kata kita sama sama ambil mudah peluang depan mata?
bazir masa kejar benda tak pasti, kau hanya tambah masalah menanti

need i say more about sinking myself in legal parties?

2011-09-23T19:34:00.000-07:00

i am working on my studies. so, don't you worry about a thing.

I tied up my tongue tight

2011-09-23T18:38:00.000-07:00

There are plenty of forgiveness to be begged from you and all of a sudden i didn't manage to say a thing to you. I thought i will never get to move on and live a happy life when everything between us has came to a discreet halt. I really am proud of myself just because i managed to put my head up rather than going through another sleepless night drowning myself with tears, another frigging lonely day with regrets, a long shower of heartbreak songs and any others activities for a heartache patient. But hey, i am all better now. We both have moved on. We are back to the phase that we used to be, strangers.

Well, hello there

2011-09-23T18:13:00.000-07:00

How was the long run?
Did your plan work out the way you wanted?
Did you manage to dig those worms and finally eat em?
Are you million times happier now?

I'd say yes. Utterly perfect. Thankyou

it's hard to let you go, harder to just fall in love with you darling

2011-06-17T08:17:00.000-07:00

the biggest lie ever
"i'll be changing my cellphone number from now on. Sorry. Bye''

this relationship is cracking. we need to get the best glue in town to make it all better

2011-06-10T19:59:00.000-07:00

I've been wondering, what if letting go of you is the best way to keep we both away from hurting each other? what if i am not what you deserve? i might be your last resort or just a comforting option? i don't know, you tell me. this love relationship is about give and take. what is he/ she gives you insensitivity, no commitments or better word shits? would you take them by dwindling your sensitivity levels and ego? i guess the saying, give and take doesn't work that way. I don't know what's wrong with me.I've been acting strange these days. Every action performed by him doesn't really work in my way. I am sorry. All the work mess and long distance been shutting me down. As a result, he gets hurt. He says he'll be waiting and he is okay. But does his heart really pronounces it? Or only his lips doing the talking. God, now i am being paranoid. Sorry. Let's not talk about this anymore.

Hey, i love you. Okay?

I screwed up almost everytime

2011-06-10T19:56:00.000-07:00

Don't worry, i am good. i just need to be alone right now. No companions in need. Sorry

Have you heard from the White? I bet you do now

2011-06-10T19:07:00.000-07:00

i surrender to all the words you had promised me

2011-06-03T09:15:00.000-07:00

You've got to be kidding me, she's back again. For more undone sentences and super edited photos.

sorry for being MIA. I know, i have lots to catch up in here. I guess am loving this gambit for now.
welcome back, myself
it's good to be back, strangers
meow :3

i carved your name on my mind instead of the tree bark

2010-12-19T21:42:00.000-08:00

Exactly, you are on my mind. But don't be too sure as it could change anytime.
I might just walk away from your life and never look back.
This feeling might just fade away.
So, learn to appreciate the person that you love while you still have time to do so.
Regrets won't just bring her/him back to you.

i am not paid to wait for the rest of my life

2010-12-15T17:49:00.000-08:00

I haven't received my degree intake result yet. Please, don't ask me why as i too don't really understand this what-the-hell situation. This morning i called the department and asked everything pertaining my result. Sadly, they asked me to wait for the second intake which will be on the 27th. Been feeling restless when it comes to this matter. I've deactivated my Facebook. I need some time alone. Yeah, i've never been this awful. Screw the system. But congratulations to everyone who has known their placements.

p/s; yesterday was the day i turned 19. Thanks for all those beautiful wishes. To receive >100 notifications and to be wished thru blogspot were the greatest birthday gifts ever. Tremendous. Have a nice day, everyone!

#howdoispendmyholidays

2010-12-12T21:18:00.000-08:00

decorate my art wall

make love with strawberries and chocolates.

getting early birthday gifts and wishes

ordinary breakfast at 11.

went out few times with my friends.

sneak peek over my dad's cassettes collections which are so oldskool.

paint my nails, almost everyday.

make my very own tie dye.

use Snaptu application to send feedback on Facebook and Twitter thru cellphone. Convenient.

the other path looks rather promising

2010-12-12T00:00:00.000-08:00

Another 3 more days ahead and i've already surrendered myself on whatever might come. I know that I had been building a castle all this while and maybe i should leave it there. Half-built. Make a new one, a new start. No, it's not that i've given up or something but maybe it's because i am better off this way. Maybe good materials, times and efforts i had invested in building my castle weren't enough. Life is about being unfair. You'll never learn if you're fear to take risks or give it a shot. If this is fate, i'll accept it like a little girl trying to accept the fact that she can't have a Buzz Lightyear and Barbie at the same time. We can't have everything that we wish for, so we need to learn to accept, learn to move on and later we grow up. If we couldn't find a way out we might need to go with the other promising paths. There's never a dead end. Learn to lose something huge for a bigger one to come. Lord, if this is what's best for me, I will try to accept it. I will.

p/s; i am more on twitter these days

F4-01-11, who's having the key?

2010-11-14T23:28:00.000-08:00

dah dua semester menginap kat sini. sampai sekarang aku tak pernah ingat number bilik. sweet tak?

semua packing barang sebab dah nak wrap up foundation. sobs

kitorang memang bijak gunakan ruang. penyembur serangga letak bersama pinggan mangkuk dan maggi

top: Ada's bed. Dia memang berniaga selendang

bottom: Mine. Tempat menyulam cinta dengan Azmarina Sakila, Azira Hafiza dan Ira Genevieve

top: Ama's bed. Aku selalu nyanyi 'you're katil is a wonderland'. tengok, deodorant dengan roti atas katil. ktnxbai

bottom: Scha's bed. You can see how diligent she is. Notes kat katil. Doa belajar pun kat tepi katil. Jangan tertipu tuan tuan dan puan puan ye, lepas belajar tidur. kidding.

semua pernah daftar audition Bintang Kecil tapi tak pernah mengaku.

aku memang gangster habis bila berjalan dengan teman wanita(s). masalah kau?

bilik zombies ( F4-O1-11) serious tak tipu. Fractious, especially time finals.

Pagi Sabtu, aku terjaga sebab dengar orang keluar masuk bilik. oh, yes Scha baru lepas mandi. Tangan meliar cari telefon mudah alih bawah bantal sambil mata masih pejam. Aha, dekat hujung kaki rupanya. Tekan sambil sebelah mata sahaja yang dibuka. Okay, it's 12 noon. Check message, dari Maxis rupanya. Kecewa sebab ingatkan ada message 'hyezZ, nak kenal leyh?'. Abah kau. Relax, man the sun hasn't risen. Aku toleh kanan tengok romie katil sebelah, tingkat atas si Amalina Azmi pun sedang berdengkur. Tuan punya katil tingkat atas aku pun tak jawab phone call yang dah masuk dua kali bunyi. Belum bangun lagi budak budak ni. Hela nafas lega, ada geng. Sambung tidur semula. Where were we just now? Oyeah, kahwin dengan Sultan Brunei. Sambung cipta mimpi.

It's 1pm. Terjaga sebab alarm si telefon mudah alih memekik. Kau memang tak pernah tengok aku senang kan? Okay, matikan. Bangun bukak tingkap sambil menguap. Tengok matahari dah keluar ke belum. Tengok pintu dining dah bukak ke belum? Inilah kelebihan bilik ground floor dan sebelah dining. Bila time lunch nak tengok orang ramai ke tak, tengok handsome boys, binasakan hati tengok orang dating, hanya buka tingkat sahaja. Dengan jemari segalanya mungkin. Yes, tak ramai orang. Lekluu, buka locker cari laptop. Facebook dulu. Tengok feedback peminat fanatik kejap. Stalk bekas kekasih. Cis, dia tak update blog. Haha. Then toleh kiri. Nampak Scha tengah makan biskut dengan milo fuze kegemaran bilik F4-01-11. Scha offer, aku geleng. Senyum sama sama. Then, tarik towel get ready nak mandi. Pandang cermin, motivasi diri kau dulu Zalila Zainal. propaganda diri kat cermin. 'you are awesome, you are amazing and you need to take your shower now'. sebelum keluar i jenguk katil Rabiatul Adawiyah dengan Amalina Azmi. Belum bangun lagi. Biarkan lah. Malam tadi semua letih menghadap buku weh. Facebook subjek yang kena betul betul hadam dalam otak kalau kau nak dapat A+. Si Scha kurang letih sebab dia menghadap informasi artis, OH ARTIS! Itu subjek tambahan yang ringan ringan sahaja.

Lepas mandi, masuk bilik. penghuni bilik semuanya dah bangun. Ama tengah buka locker cari semangat. Ada buka laptop pun cari semangat. Macam tu lah kitorang mulakan hari baru. Positif dan penuh kesabaran. Lepas berdandan. Sambung facebook sambil hirup nescafe. Masing masing tengok masing masing. Masing masing offer biskut dan minuman tiga dalam satu. Cerita pasal jiran sebelah kejap, cerita pasal apa yang kau tak puas hati, cerita pasal Akademi Fantasia. Haa, bab Akademi Fantasia aku tak pernah sangkut, percayalah. 'Lapar lah, jom pergi dining?' lapar pulak dah. Okay, satu bilik siap siap pergi dining cari makanan untuk makan tengah hari. Mula lah, Scha sibuk cari sweater orangenya, Ama dah start cari tudung dan Ada minta pinjam tudung Scha. Tutup pintu nak bergerak ke dining, then mesti ada at least seorang tanya 'kunci siapa bawak?'. 'I!' balas si pemegang kunci.

Balik bilik balik, makan makan. Lepas makan facebook kejap. Duduk bersembang lagi dan lagi. Sampai 3 petang semua give up. Tak boleh jadi ni. Aura katil memanggil. Sekali lagi, semua orang tarik langsir dan tutup laptop dan bergolek atas katil. Golek golek lepastu tertidur. TER-R-Rtidur. Sampai ke 6 petang barulah penghuni bangun. Tu pun sebab ada individu yang kurang prihatin main bola kat sebelah dining. Kalau tak sampai ke senja lah. Menyampah. Semua bangun dan cari food untuk makan malam. Pergi KOOP dengan muka busuk dan gangster. Oh, sekarang baru aku tau kenapa bisnes KOOP tak berapa nak maju lately. Sebab ada empat monsters busuk keluar cari makanan. Lepas dah nak Maghrib barulah pergi mandi dan solat.

9 malam semua berada di meja masing masing dengan urusan masing masing. kau Facebook, aku Facebook. Then Ada, ajak dengar lagu baru kat playlist dia. Lagu Putus dari Melda Ahmad. Biasa lah. Semua single, so kena layan lagu orang sedih. Lagu orang yang tak ada kekasih. Kena buka mata dan sedar diri. Sobs. Habis main lagu buat kali ke tiga, layan movie pulakk. Tengok One Litre of Tears. Sedih gua cakap lu. Sebelas kali kitorang tengok dua puluh kali menangis. Feel nak mampus. Dah habis tengok sambung Facebook. Then lapar balik, empat empat orang pergi KOOP cari maggi pulak. Aku cari keropok Rota, Ama cari Coke, Scha apetah, Ada cari roti. Kalau hari bertuah, ada lah pak cik dan mak cik comel jual kuih dengan nasi lemak dekat blok Mahsuri malam malam.

Sampai bilik makan maggi. I rasa maggi you sikit, I nak semua maggi you, boleh? Tak, tu Scha sahaja. Haha. Kidding. Then sambung duduk sembang dan Facebook. Tengok video dekat Youtube. Download lagu jiwang leleh. Blogging. Facebooking. Agak agak lama tunggu komputer riba download lagu, aku start tanya 'esok class nak pakai baju apa?'. Semua toleh. Semua sibuk buka locker masing masing selongkar cari baju untuk class esok. Dah mula dah aktiviti aku pinjam baju kau, aku pinjam tudung kau mula beroperasi. Okay, dah selesai. Semua mula iron baju sambil gelak gelak cerita pasal apetah. Dah letih menghadap komputer riba, tiba tiba mengantuk pulak. Padamkan skrin komputer riba, tutup lampu, ambil telefon mudah alih semua ke katil untuk tidur. Kena tidur awal, esok nak ke kelas dan mulakan hari bersama Milo. Sebelum tidur gelak gelak dulu. Tiba tiba semua senyap, sunyi. Dah tidur rupanya budak budak ni. Aku tepuk bantal tarik selimut. Set alarm. Sebelum pejam mata terfikir, how did i spend my whole weekend? Oh yes, i woke up at noon, Facebook, talked and laughed and Facebook again and now here i am on my bed wrapping up my day. Pandang atas katil, senyum dan bersyukur sebab aku tinggal sebilik dengan orang yang sekepala. Semua baik baik belaka. Pejam mata. Tersenyum. Night, Merbuk.

Even we are from different sides of the globe, I am from Kedah, Ada's from Petaling Jaya, Scha's from Taiping and Ama's from Kuala Terengganu, we could really fit in very well along the whole foundation. Been wondering how would my future roomie in my new place (degree) be, everytime i think of you girls. I miss laughing with you girls. I miss each and everyone of you. Till we meet again, zombies. I love you :')

tongue tied and overloaded

2010-11-09T10:54:00.000-08:00

there are few things that i left unsaid and i hope you'll figure them out on your own. I know you don't actually read minds but don't you think my expressions and actions show?

aching your bones

2010-11-08T19:45:00.000-08:00

why are you playing with a ceaseless fire if you know that someday it might burn? the immense smoke will keep you breathless. haven't people told you that the fire might burn all parts of your body? the injuries might take a long period of time to heal. the wound won't be easy to deal with and the scar might be permanent.

oh boy, don't use the power of facebook status to show the entire world how you've been feeling. and how i've been affecting you much. i've been keeping myself shut and you are elevating you thoughts. the truth is you are playing with yourself and i never intrude your life. don't say sorry to me, but be sorry to yourself for being such a coward. here's something that you should know, this fire can really burn every bit of you and you don't know how can it really affect you this time. so, ponder my words will you?

si dunggu dan si mulut manis

2010-11-07T06:48:00.000-08:00

semalam, kau cakap kita akan selamanya bersama. kau ingat lagi hari dulu? dulu, aku antara orang terawal tahu siapa yang kau ragu ragu nak berikan cinta .aku antara orang terawal tahu siapa dah rosakkan hati kau.aku antara orang yang belai jiwa kau. aku antara orang yang tak kering gusi ketawa walaupun belum sempat kau buka mulut untuk berjenaka. selang sebulan dua, kita terpaksa berpisah. kau cakap itu yang terbaik. kau janji kita akan selamanya berkawan baik. tiada siapa yang akan berubah mengikut masa. mana mungkin si bendul tak percaya omomg kosong si mulut manis. aku percaya, lupa pula nak khabarkan aku juga antara orang yang percaya segala yang kau kumat kamitkan dari bibir. hari demi hari, kau makin jauh dari aku. kau dah mula diragui .aku dah mula dirosakkan hati. aku dah tak dibelai. kau dah tak pandai berjenaka. kau tahu yang aku akan ada kalau kau rasa takut, kalau kau dah mula melenting aku sentiasa ada. sentiasa. kau? menghilang dari pancaindera walaupun kau ada di depan mata. tiap hari bertentang mata, kau dah berbeza. simbiosis antara si dunggu dan si manis mulut dah mula wujud. sebab kau dah jumpa mereka yang mungkin takkan diragui, takkan cuba menyakiti, takkan berhenti belai jiwa kering kau, dan takkan berhenti ketawa walaupun kau cuma ceritakan lawak bodoh budak darjah dua. kau lupa hari dulu? kau lupa janji kita? aku masih pegang dengan janji kau yang aku percaya sampai bila bila. akulah si dunggu yang tak pernah hilang jemari membilang hari melihat kau pergi. kelmarin, aku cuba lihat kau bawah lensa mikroskop. rupanya, pada mata coklat kau, aku tak dianggap kawan baik kau sejak azali.

kita mungkin seperti si tapak sulaiman merah jambu dan span kuning. aku si merah jambu, yang dunggu dan kau si kuning. oh, tak mungkin. spongebob tak pernah lupakan kawan. kau mungkin si pentingkan diri, squidward. toodles

a dreadful symbiosis

2010-11-03T05:23:00.000-07:00

am an egoistic type of person and you are an individual with full of sentimental values.
and there are two things that will never work.
ME and YOU

sacred memorials

2010-10-15T05:13:00.000-07:00

made of 20% love and 80% boredom, equals to 100% of zalila's art wall. Now i have something to brag upon. lol.

pretty damsels that make my days

2010-09-29T07:10:00.000-07:00

asmarina sakila, did i tell you to never give up in your love relationship?
ira genevieve, did i tell that you look good in baju kurung?
azira hafiza, did i tell you to never hide things fom me?
natalia harris, did i tell you to stop saying the word sorry?
nurul hafidza, did i tell you to stop taking things so seriously?
rabiatul adawiyah, did i tell you that your forehead is fine?
syakirah, did i tell you that you are good in celebrities' gossips?
amalina azmi, did i tell you to stop waiting for something which is not worth waiting?
siti atikah, did i tell you that you have a beautiful voice?

even if i did, i don't want to stop myself from letting you people know. having you guys throughout the entire foundation programme is the greatest part of all. thanks for having me. till we meet again, i love you girls for sure. take care

yours truly,
zalila zainal

pretty people shined by chandelier

2010-09-28T12:21:00.000-07:00

for a second it was the greatest moment for everyone. but on second thought, it was the saddest one, i reckoned.

p/s; thanked god i didn't end up myself tripping during the beautiful event. credits to amalina azmi and azira hafiza for the pictures

it's payback time

2010-09-18T11:20:00.000-07:00

i had spent my precious time on kuih raya, attending open houses and hovering around the house like some kind of insane individual. so, as a result i need to redeem all those so called beneficial activities with study thingy thing. as so you know, i'll be sitting for my final exam on the coming weeks. due to this, i need to cut down my facebook intake and tumblr-ing activities. yeah, i better start it now or never. and to the others, good luck in enjoying your kuih raya while studying. don't fall sick. take care . toodles

blood on favourite fabric

2010-09-18T10:55:00.000-07:00

sometimes you are one of the strangers to me. and later, you are like the closest person who understands me more than i could understand myself. i can't describe you as a person and you do know that i am bad at describing stuff. i've been trying to act cool when i am around you. gee, that is the hardest thing in the entire universe. i've been trying my best to get rid of you. if it takes me more than a century, i am willing to do so. i promised myself that there shall be no more you, ever. but now i know that it is ain't easy to erase you. you are like a stubborn stain stuck on my favourite dress. i am afraid to say this but i think the strange feeling has got into me, the past has started to dwell in head. once again, i've failed.

eid with beautiful people

2010-09-18T00:05:00.000-07:00

eid

2010-09-09T22:50:00.000-07:00

happy eid to everyone.

from top to toe, i decently ask for your forgiveness

let bygones be bygones

let's start it all over, shall we?

p/s; yeah, kebaya for me. smashingg *tap head*

myself, failure

2010-09-08T02:13:00.000-07:00

few days back i went to Jusco to shop for eid. mama called it a last minute shopping but i thought we were in a good timing. yeah hello, am a last minute person. so we went to the ladies department. mama left me and my little sister while she went to the kids department a level above with my another little sister. i helped my sister to choose her clothes. she was so picky and it heated me quite a bit *tap head*. so, the clothes was choosen and i accompanied her to the fitting room. i waited outside and suddenly i saw this pretty lady with a pair of beautiful eyes. she smiled excitedly to me. i smiled back. i studied her behaviour, she was disabled. she looked anxious with some clothes in her both hands and she walked unpatiently to the fitting room. i bet she couldn't wait to put them on. then, she entered one of the rooms. and after she had put one of the clothes she went straight to her family members who were waiting for her. they said she looked pretty in it and they laughed happily. her mother asked her if she felt comfortable in it. she shocked her head energeticly. i was happy for them. no doubt, she looked good in it and probably she can wear that for her eid. but, then it came across my mind that would i be able to face the same thing that they are being through? i meant if i happen to have a disabled family member, would i be that strong in facing public? with those amusing and pityful looks given by people? i don't think i can turn out to be that strong because i am the kind of person who concerns public's views in everything. i care of myself looking good in front of people. i'd look good if the public feels the same too. and i will always want to be pleased by absolutely, public. i want to be noticed by people around me. by the end of the day, my attitude shows how selfish i am. i seem to care much on other people's views and without knowing, i've hurt a lot of people around me who actually care for me and know me better than anyone else which are my family, close friends and even myself.

John Mayer - Heartbreak Warfare

2010-09-03T21:32:00.000-07:00

eid

2010-09-03T20:05:00.000-07:00

am off to kulim, for good.and i'll be away
selamat hari raya my dearest readers. have a great one. take care!

p/s; sorry because am soo not ready to post about the leave :')

♥

a letter to YOU

2010-09-02T13:21:00.000-07:00

Dear YOU,

if confessing our feelings is as easy as ABC. i promise i'll be the first to tell you that i like you

the end,

COWARD

dear eight-year-old kid,

2010-08-31T12:53:00.000-07:00

dear my zayani zainal, please

-don't stop calling my name when you have problems with your homework
-don't stop yourself from giving me 'special card' everytime i get home
-don't stop 'showing-off' your pretty drawings at the refrigerator
-don't stop accompanying me during the spongebob square pants show
-don't stop telling me stories about your annoying little friends in school, they are soo like you. haha
-don't stop entering my room without knocking
-don't stop waking me up, every morning when the clock hits 11 am
-don't stop fighting with your another big sister, zalifa. you guys remind me of world war II
-don't stop telling me that i look good in everything. you are my confidence catalyst
-don't stop telling me that my dishes are splendid and finger licking good
-don't stop listening to my oh-so-adult nagging session
-pleasee pleaseee, don't stop yourself from annoying me ( i can't believe i'm saying this. god! )

and here goes, HA-HA-HAPPY BIRTHDAY to the most annoying sister ever. after all, you are the only sister who understands my weird behaviour. i love you the most, always ♥

S

2010-08-30T01:57:00.000-07:00

you remind me of me being a complete different person. someone who i can't be. so, i refuse to stay

it's only a matter of time

2010-08-29T10:43:00.000-07:00

another few days coming and pooft, i won't be seen walking to classes, laughing insanely at the food court and sitting comfortably on the library sofa. i think the time is being unfair to me. i feel like i've just met these beautiful people. i've just met the place. rehearsing lines for debate, speech and sketch in a very last minute used to be the worst part of my days. but now, i started to miss doing those junks. so, what is it now? i need to get ready and face the fact that i'll be leaving this splendid place in less than a month?well truth be told, after i was informed by my mama about the offer of furthering my studies in merbuk, i burst into tears. it was because i had no idea where was the place eventhough i've been dwelling kedah for some years. i thought i twas so un-cool to be placed here. my parents convinced me that a starbucks francais located somewhere in sg petani and i might feel better about the news. haha. what was i thinking. but then, months and months passed and i started to like this place. merbuk has it all, it is as green as ever and the air, i don't feel like mentioning it. all the way down to merbuk your sight would be served with paddy field and warm people. i am glad to be here, honestly i do. am not ready to pack up my things. i dislike the whole idea of leaving this place. the place will remind me of , well everything. and to you mister, you will always be the best part of my bulky memories along these semesters. thanks :)

okay. my lullaby (global issue notes) has started to tune. i'll be posting more about the leave, real soon. promise. hang in there
robin cook. i better send you back to the library or i'll be cooked. it's been weeks. HAHA

new chapter, again

2010-08-25T09:34:00.000-07:00

hello, new chapter
:)

the academy is

2010-08-23T13:36:00.000-07:00

i want to have long legs like william beckett.
leather jacket like william beckett
skinny jeans like william beckett
so, william william william
:D

busy busy busy

2010-08-21T15:21:00.000-07:00

this week, i'll be catching up with splendid stuffs

-economy/test
-bel342/ assignment
-law/presentation
-mooting

i'll be pretty much a-a-away. so, take care. toodles ♥